Oneness and personality integration

Yesterday I had an argument with a friend. As the fight reached its peak, I looked at the drama and my personalities playing in it. It was fascinating. I found many:

1. The Fair one who wants peace with everyone was feeling very fidgety. Wanted to somehow make it all ok
2. The Bad girl was angry, resentful and wanted revenge
3. The Good girl wanted him to see logic, reason
4. The little girl was sad and scared at having lost secure love
5. The compassionate one could see and feel his pain
6. The mother wanted to make it all all right for him
7. The wild one was sad that she cannot play with him anymore
8. The friend missed him
9. The pessimistic one said she knew this would happen..
10. The optimistic one was glad that its the end of a chapter.
11. The father wanted to be helpful and give advice
    
12. The rebel wanted to say hell with the world, no one understands me
13. The acheiver wanted to do something, manage the situation
14. The victim wanted to blame him for everything
15. The timid person wanted to run to friends for help
    

Talking to them and integrating them was a wonderful experience. I am grateful for this experience. I also truely recognized why situations are complex.. that I am at war within myself when something unfolds. I also saw how they emerge. Its usually the child that gets sad or scared about losing love. Then all the rest emerge to protect the child.. each one thinks she knows best. There are also so many emotions that its hard to name it.

We all have multiple personalities. We created them as children to protect ourselves when we were shocked. When suddenly the realization struck that I am not always loved for being me. These personalities have helped us deal with life. They all have a good intention. Before we can feel one with another, we need to accept and love all our personalities. We need to feel ONE within. I am glad I started on the process of internal integration.

Blessings,
Samanvitha