Esateys mentioned that this is a phase of integration. My body is just integrating the new frequencies and stabilizing it.
Then since last evening, there has been a rage that has gripped me. The mind has decided to direct it towards a guy a met in March when I ran the Napa marathon. I just met him for that weekend. Somehow he seems to represent darkness to me. Darkness that pretends to be light, finds its way into your life, and then plunges it into darkness. There is still a small voice of truth that knows that he is God too. God is both light and dark, in fact all that is. Knowing that, and holding that truth is essential during these times.
I woke up many times last night with nightmares. This time it involved a man I met just after the Napa marathon. He was being patronizing and I was again gripped with rage and rebellion. I think the content is unimportant. I am just recognizing that there is a distinct energy of unrest, rebellion flowing through me at this time.
In a large scheme of things, I think this is a rebellion against the limitation of my perceived humanness. I was speaking with a friend yesterday and in some context he said "I am human". I immediately said "But I am not". It seemed the most natural truth in the moment. I have been having this urge to shave off my head. I think its part of this freedom that I wish to embrace. Go beyond the perceptions of human beauty and conditioning.
The time is NOW for those of us who know who we are and why we are here at this time to step up and embrace all that we are! We have lived a human existence to learn how this system operates, but we are not of this plane of existance, we have a purpose to serve here. Call it forth and step beyond your limited humanness!! Call it forth NOW!!
In service to the grandness of Life and Light,
Samanvitha
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